Who am I??

I love music and singing. I am fascinated by the communication of animals. I love the scent of newborn babies and my favorite color is yellow. Wild flowers are my chosen flowerets because they're free and magical like myself; bound to grow anywhere that the wind takes them. I've been known to be a "night owl," however sometimes I'll go to bed early and rise bright and early with clear intention. If given the choice, I prefer the center piece of any brownie or casserole dish. However, there is an exception to this rule -- I prefer the outer portion of a steak. I have a huge personality and an even bigger appetite. I require random bouts of space at any given time but I want to be held and coddled. I am uniquely complex and intricate, though I find beauty in the most simplistic things in life. Children make me cheerful because they are carefree and happy. I am bold but I am also timid, if you will. I guard myself, my heart, because it's my duty to do so! I try to see the good in everyone. Of course, I am wise enough to know that no-one is ALL bad. I have allowed myself to have awesome days and I've allotted myself too much time to beat myself up for things that I'll never have the time nor opportunity to correct. Life goes on no matter what! I've been guilty of holding on to things for too long: grudges, people, hope in dead situations. I have  given my love when and where I shouldn't have. But I learned along the way. I have been fortunate enough to bond with people, both young and old all over the place. It enlightens me to know that I have made so many people happy, even if I didn't feel good myself. Life has also humbled me, circumstances have disciplined me but God hasn't left me. I have a prideful spirit and an enormous ego needless to say. With that being said, I'm learning how to lead with intention instead of emotion. Life moves so fast sometimes, making a split decision  sometimes seems like the best decision but it's not. Wildcard? That's me! It doesn't take me but a second to watch a person and I can imitate them in a "New York minute." I've always figured if I watch a person long enough I can learn all that I need to know about him or her. I assume people felt the same way about me so I am reluctant about what I show or share! I do know that I am strong as hell, confident & smart. Reading is one of my greatest past times. I am thorough and also inquisitive. I adore affection from certain individuals but overall I am not an affectionate person. 'I love you," is something that I say quite often to my loved ones. I try not to use it in vain and I don't say it if I don't mean it. And it's so difficult for me to abandon others because I have abandonment issues myself. But my ability to detach from someone is unmatched when I feel defeated or used. I love myself because I am flawed but I too am flawless!