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 I spent many years resenting my own brother because he received my biological mama's love so effortlessly and she gave  this seemingly warm love to him so abundantly. I only saw the maternal side of her if he (Shomarie) needed something from her. My mama has really never explained to me why she obviously made a difference in my brother and I and that's ok.  I am definitely a work in progress, but I am learning to make peace with my demons. I read somewhere years ago that, "sometimes you have to be okay with the 'I'm sorry's that you don't get!" That is one of the most brilliant quotes that I've ever laid my eyes on! As indifferent as I felt, I knew deep down, somewhere deep in the pit of my subconscious, that it wasn't his fault that she didn't love me wholeheartedly. She simply didn't know me, she carried me, she clothed and fed me, she even loved me but most of all, she tolerated me. What she doesn't know is that she has aided tremendously in making me the lean mean power house that I am today. Though I am sometimes bombarded with the many unpleasant  thoughts of our tumultuous relationship, I thank her! While she was occupied trying to tear  me down;  the Lord and myself were miraculously building me up from the inside out. 💛


An exert from my book that I'm currently writing, titled: "The Year 25".

Thanks, Shenequa